Ruminations on a 40-hour work week

On Mondays, I hate my life and wish I was unemployed.

On Tuesdays, I wish it was Friday.

On Wednesdays, I wish it was Friday.

On Thursdays, I start to get used to my week.

On Fridays, I feel refreshed and awake, and ready to brave the week, like
BRING IT ON.
Oh.
Well... TGIF then.

The Battle for Chiang- Love , hate, apathy... and groove

You can accuse Taipei of being a boring modern city. You can go numb to the towering grey buildings, the narrow, suspicious-smelling alleys and the boisterously arrogant traffic. But just as you get used to all that, you'll turn the corner and Taipei will suckerpunch you with some beautifully ornate Asian architecture that will remind you of where you live.

Chiang Kai Shek Memorial Hall is such an interesting space. First, there's the whole political side of it. It's actually called Democracy Hall, a new name that hasn't really taken. As one of of their last orders as the governing party, the DPP yanked Chiang's name off the front gates and changed it to something more DPPish, causing major disgruntlement amongst KMT old-schoolers. A month after this, the Taiwanese legislature had an election, and the DPP went from 87 seats in the house to an abysmal 26. Two months later, they lost presidential elections to the KMT in an overwhelming defeat. Now rumour has it that as soon as they swear the new guy in, the KMT's first order of business will be to nail Chiang's name right back up on the door.

Second, the specs.
It is massive. And beautiful. Crowned with a blue-shingled roof, the hall sits atop three tiers of Ming style staircases, and towers above the masses the way only a stern, dead dictator can. It's a long 89 steps up to the pagoda-shaped hall, a step for each year of Chiang's life. At the top, an intimidating set of bronze double doors, 16 metres high, gains you entrance into the stiflingly somber hall. Everything about the building is supposed to invoke awe, reverence and somber reflection.

Inside, the hall is a political battleground of contradictions. Below the giant bronze statue of the immortalized KMT leader (who himself, hovers above on a god-like pedestal, 10 metres high), is an art exhibit condemning Chiang's dictatorial rule, and narrating all the atrocities of oppression under his party. In his own memorial hall. Old photos and poetry celebrate the pro-independence movement of Taiwan, which, though not mentioned in the exhibit, was founded and fought for by many members of the DPP party, including the outgoing President, Chen Shui-bien.

Politics aside, CKS Memorial Hall is effectively one of the biggest and most diverse public spaces I have ever seen. From the front gate to the Hall is about 2 football fields of tiled... space. On either side, there is a theatre, identical and facing each other. Each theatre has a long set of stairs leading up to a wide set of mirrored doors and panels. Each theatre also hosts a set of teenage boys- pop n lockers watching themselves in the mirrors on the left, down rockers practising their power moves on the right. Put them together and you might actually get a decent group of breakers, but neither group seems remotely interested in this. From theatre to theatre is a massive expanse of about 300 metres. When sitting on one set of stairs, the dancers on the other side look like NSync backup dancers swishing around in a miniature diarrama.

In the middle of the vying halls of break, there is a group of 30 teenage boys and girls all dressed in identical maroon and white tracksuits. Some of the girls toy with pink and white pom poms. Suddenly, they all get into formation, and count off their routine (yi, er, san, shi) as they shuffle into different clusters, alternately raising right arms, then lefts, facing East, then West, more shuffling, an occasional lifting of a small asian girl, a few hand claps, and then, for the grand finale, in the dying notes of the anonymous late-90s dance hit, everyone assumes the Judd Nelson pose in the last scene of The Breakfast Club- fist raised victorious, freeze-frame, fade out.

On any given night at CKS, there are different school groups using the theatre hall's mirrored doors to spot their routine. Some of them spill into the tiled square, clusters of kids, gathering for practice. The same square was the site of countless political protests and demonstrations throughout the 1980s and 1990s.

On weekends, the entire square, all 2 football fields of it, is bespekled with kids on trikes or chasing blown bubbles, parents running after said kids, old men playing chinese chess, couples having a pseudo-picnic, and hi-ho-hoo-ha-ha teens practicing their dance routines. The aural experience of walking through the square, amidst 20 amateur dance crews, is absolutely awesome- C&C Music Factory bleeds into James Brown, with background chants of Chinglish cheers like "Will you ready to rock?"

Chortle.

I don't care who wins the ideological rights to 'ol Chiang, so long as the groove is in his house.

wish you were here - home, the heart and so forth

Every few years, I try to teach myself egolessness. I try to play the humble storyteller. On occasion, my ego will ask me if I'm a good one, and I stumble and fret about that for a while....
And then I try to remember a lesson i learned from a friend a long time ago, probably one of the wisest things I've ever learned- I am ridiculous. We all are. The faster we are able to discern what to take seriously in life and what to be playful about, the happier we'll be. After this, I guffah a bit and feel immensely better about myself. guffah.

So, with the self-conscious bravado of egolessness (and because I was too lazy to re-edit my guy and include this bit), I want to paint the scene for you. And I'll wave it like i just dont care...


The Prologue
I thought that having travelled around Asia a lot, coming to Taiwan would be easier. Not easy, but easier. I was wrong. Despite the long list of countries that I have been to, I think I only experienced my first true bout of culture shock here, during my first week in Taiwan.

I went out to teach at a school Miaoli (aka buttfuck nowhere), and they put me up for 5 days in a house where no one spoke English, and where I was consequently avoided like the plague. I didn't have a car or a scooter (or a key to the house I was living in, for that matter), and had to be driven to and from the school. Neither the school nor the house was in Miaoli city (which was really just a town), and both were about as lively as say, ingersoll, ontario. I didn't speak enough Chinese to know my own address, order my own food, or even tell my roommates not to lock the door because I couldn't get back in. When people realized I couldn't speak Chinese, they initially treated me with annoyance, then pity, and finally avoidance. By looking Chinese but not being able to speak it, I had lost face. Most of them looked embarassed for me, so they decided it was more dignified not to interact with me. I had no one to speak to besides the kids that hated me, and the relatively nice but quiet bosslady.

This feeling of total alienation stayed with me until I came back to Taipei. Things got better, and then got worse again. When I was in Hualien, it was the same kind of reaction from the locals- annoyance, pity, avoidance. It's also a small, somewhat backwards town that tries to pretend it's a city- isolated and isolating, very homogenous culture, very little english. There were maybe 20 foreigners living in Hualien (all white), but I found it hard to break into their clique and hardly ever saw them. Having grown up in a place as diverse as Toronto, I was beginning to go a little stir crazy from the monoculture- everyone looked the same, spoke the same... glared the same. Pont is, this is a town where you'd bat an eye or two if you saw a white boy, and do a double-triple take if you saw a foreigner who wasn't white. And for someone like me, who dressed/spoke/acted like a foreigner but looked like one of them?
... Annoyance, pity, avoidance.

This is when I met Farouk and Cameron, while I was in Hualien. So duh, part of the story is about me too. I really did ask them the assanine question "do you speak English". because besides the new quiet bosslady, and the new kids that hated me, I still didn't have anyone to talk to. I felt like I was in a really small room filled with all these lost conversations, and someone had opened the door and all my words just came spilling out. I was frustrated with Taiwan, frustrated with racism, and looking for people to commiserate with. Oh, and terribly homesick.

That's it. I've said too much. Again.